Elder M. Russell Ballard shared a personal experience in the CES Fireside talk that was broadcast to young adults on 7 November 2010.
Some years ago one of my missionaries came to see me. He said: “President, I am losing my testimony. I have some questions that no one will answer for me. My bishop and stake president just told me to forget them, and they had no answers.”
I asked for his questions in writing and then suggested he come to see me in 10 days, and I would answer every one of his questions.
As he was leaving my office, I was prompted to ask him, “Elder, how long has it been since you have read from the scriptures?”
He acknowledged that it had been a long time.
I said: “You have given me an assignment; it’s only fair that I give you one. You read at least one hour from the scriptures each day until you come back for your answers.”
He agreed to do this.
When he came back, I was ready. He said: “President, I don’t need the answers. I know the Book of Mormon is true. I know Joseph Smith is a prophet. I’m OK now.”
I replied: “You will get your answers anyway. I worked hard on them!” …
After our discussion I asked him, “Elder, what have you learned from all of this?”
And he gave me a very significant response: “I’ve learned to give the Lord equal time!”
 In the culture of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, someone who once was a faithful member but has since become a non-practitioner or a non-believer in the fundamental doctrines of the church is said to have lost his or her testimony. (See “Testimony.” Study by Topic. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.)
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